Thursday, September 24, 2009

A Scare

A friend once told me a few years ago that she wanted to end her life.
When you hear stories like these or when you watch a movie about suicide, you never think you would one day have to face something like that. Naturally as a friend you would panic. Some would worry. While a few labeled as nitwits might remain skeptical and probably think it was a ruse to get attention.

Now how do you answer your friend who just told you that. How? Do you say, could you wait? Do you say, I'm sorry? Do you say, I'm not free now but I think we can both end our lives sometime next week at say so and so time and place? What do you tell her?

I still remember that day and I asked her (while praying to the God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit for help.) why. Naturally she'll listed down everything.
1) I hate myself
2) Everyone hates me
3)Nobody likes me
4) No one loves me.

That was basically the gist of it. The sad thing was this person, this incredible person did not even realise her worth or how much she meant to me or everyone around her or even to God. But how could she have known, she was drowning in self pity, guilt and hatred. Everyone can relate to that.
The weird thing was her story was not dramatic. She felt left out.


The fact that she told me this showed me she wanted to live. She was afraid just like many of us. She figured the rest of the world had secret books of life which told of ways to succeed while she was wandering around clueless.

To be honest the one reason why anyone thinks or even does commit suicide is because they think they are unloved.

She just needed to open her eyes.

What did I tell her?
Ahh... loads of things. I told her about the beauty of the world. I told her about the things she has yet to see. I told her about love. The love that her friends and family have of her. I told her about the love God has of her.

Its a scary thing when a person you know thinks about disappearing of the face of the world just to run away from his or her troubles. But in today's world it is becoming a norm. The world is skeptical and so it scoffs at the very notion that love exists when the irony is, the world craves it. Today, there are more than 3 suicides happening each minute of the day. Is it no wonder that sooner or later you might find yourself in the same situation I was in years ago? A friend, a family member, a love one.


I believe though in our current lifetime alone (despite the fact that most of us have never became famous or incredibly rich or have yet to reach our golden years) we have already changed a person's life for the better. And in that made a difference.

How do I know this?

Years ago, I changed my friend's life. Today I am still impacting my friends' lives just because I am their friend.
Look into the lives of those around you and then tell me have you made a difference?

1 comment:

Dree said...

You are one amazing woman you know that =) keep up the good job =D